my everything has moved
it feels not like i thought it would to be at a terminal after so long. friends still exist, three-thousand-or-so miles away. new people exist here. really, being on my own (the mom left yesterday) is so much less stress. i'm not playing the old game of anticipating her thoughts or displeasures, really a game she doesn't care for anyway...because really she only wants my happiness. I did realize it after about four days in the car with her. I remember montana being really hard on me...hard on our relationship. I was snappy, and especially down on her conservative views, but, kept it inside, as i do. How could she love something that had flown so far away from where we met? she traveled so far to the other pole, as well.

so, I'm in Cheshire, CT. this quiet time is perfect to establish myself, with myself. my small amount of effects are perfect. daily self-study with yoga has begun. school starts thursday and I'm ready. I've really never had such ambition in my life. Nothing has been lost, as it's all love waiting to resurface.